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A decision is made

In my last post, I left things a little vague about where we are going to be spending our next two years. A great deal of that was because I had not actually met those I would be working with in Minnesota.

On Wednesday, I was able to make a day trip to the U of M to meet the research group and look around the campus.

It was a wonderful trip, and I saw no big warning signs in the group dynamics or working relationships. In fact, I saw a group that enjoyed one another, and was able to be productive in a low-stress environment.

So, I decided to take the job at the U of M.

It starts on January 15th, and so Kirsten and I are looking at rentals this weekend, and moving on January 8th.

We’re planning on plugging in with Evergreen in some way shape or form, most likely either serving at The Rock or The Urban Refuge.

What a whirlwind! And oh, so amazing!

June, July and August Photos

I’ve once again caught up on uploading photos to our photo gallery… Here are some pictures of Madeline for your enjoyment:

June 2006, Part 1

June 2006, Part 2

July 2006

August 2006

I’ve also uploaded some pictures of the 1st Rock on the Terrace and some of the recent z37 work to my flickr stream and to the Rock’s group on Flickr.

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Happy Viewing!

The Stonebrook Audio Archive Project, One Year Later

It’s been close to one year since I started my project to convert a large portion of Stonebrook’s vast tape library to digital format.  I’m not nearly as far as I expected I would be at this time when I first began, but things are going better than ever at this point.

I calculated today that I have close to 20% of the tape library accounted for (nearly 600 tapes) — in other words, tapes I have either converted to digital format or have decided to set aside and not add to the digital archive for various reasons. I have some where around 375-400 actual MP3 files of messages. That sounds good in one sense — but maybe not so much when you consider that it would take me four more years to finish at that rate.  Not what I was hoping for.

However, things seem a little more optimistic when you consider that out of the past 11.5 months, I was only actually actively working to digitize tapes for less than three months of that! If I could have kept up that rate the whole year (and if I chose to digitize the same percentage of tapes, which may not completely be the case) — I would have been mostly finished by now!

So what happened? After getting off to a quick start last summer, I took a break for close to a month while the Rock’s ministry kicked off for the fall and I did an issue of Daylights.  Then I got started again and only a few weeks later, had a terrible hard drive crash.  It was very discouraging and I had to take a few weeks off while we figured out what I lost and got a new hard drive (luckily, I had only lost a few dozen of my permanent lossless archive files, and none of the MP3s…so I can set aside all the ones that I need to re-do in the permanent archive format at the end after I have done everything else).

Needless to say, I learned my lesson about backing up frequently, and we purchased a DVD burner also to back-up the lossless archive files onto many DVDs.  I making quick progress again for a few weeks, when we came up with what seemed like a great idea — why not move the digitizing set-up into our bedroom on the main floor so I don’t have run up and down the stairs with Madeline all the time to check on the tapes? Great idea!

That idea took a little longer than expected to impliment. Tony and Gary built a special wooden rack to stand in the corner of the room, got a different computer all set-up to be dedicated to the tape tape digitizing process, modified slightly the cases of both tape decks so they could both be mounted in the rack to be used simultaneously, and got this whole thing put together (It’s affectionately known as “tape monster”).

I think it was sometime in late winter before it was all up and running (February maybe?). But, by that point I was so imersed in other things (busy with helping Mike and Jackie with their wedding plans, busy planning the Rock parents event, busy with Madeline, etc)…that I didn’t have the motivation and drive to figure out where I had left off and put it back into my routine.

I just got started again a couple weeks ago. The computer part of tape monster has still been having some issues.  I can’t use both tape decks at once yet, reliably. I am also not sure that I can multitask quite well enough to keep up with two tape decks, especially when only one of them automatically switches sides and relays to the second tape. I’ve also still been having problems with the computer crashing. Upgrading versions of audacity (the free software I use for the digitzing process) and exiting the program between each one or two tapes and then re-entering before continuing seems to help a lot. It isn’t as reliable as when we used “blackbox” (our fast main desktop computer) for the conversion process, but it is so much more convenient overall having it upstairs that I think it is worth it.

I guess we’ll see what the next year brings.  If this set-up continues to work well and we have no major life or technology issues that get in the way, I might actually be close to finishing by a year from now. :) I can actually convert 8-10 or more tapes per day without much problem (depending on tape and message length, and if I can pay close attention to when a message stops or not), and of course I am only actually digitizing half to two-thirds of the archives.
Meanwhile, if you want MP3 files of the tapes I have already converted, feel free to let me know — all of what I have done up to this point fits on two DVDs, and with the low price of blank discs these days, if you give me a couple bucks that is completely adequate to cover the cost.  (It’s better to email me if you are interested — kirsten SPLAT rockisu dot com — take out the SLPAT and put in “@”).

Questions That Trouble Me

I hurried through my “Believing God” Bible study workbook assignments this week to get to #5 — the section dealing with what happens when God does not come through with a miracle we ask Him for. (This week’s lessons are related to the theme of “God can do what He says He can do” — and the author’s primary focus is miracles.)

I had been looking forward with great anticipation with this section, but as it turns out it didn’t really answer the questions that often plague me related to this. Her examples seemed to deal mostly with sickness and death — types of miracles that people ask for and they either happen or they don’t happen. They are also usually things that we as people have very little control over. There is nothing we can literally “do” about a sick friend or relative. It really is prayer, and prayer only.

My struggles and doubts in this area are honestly related to ministry — more specifically, to the faith goals or requests we put before God. And, at least in my mind, it seems so much more complicated. These faith-goal miracles we ask God for range from, on a small scale, believing God to see a certain Lifegroup grow in size…to on a larger level believing God for a certain attendance level at the Rock or for a certain number of people to get saved or attend a conference.

These type of miracles (or maybe just “requests of God” would be a better term for this category) feel a lot different to me because they are not finite in the number of ways they can be answered. They are not necessarily “yes or no” questions. And we do play an active part in seeing these goals realized. For example. if we were to ask God to see 200 people attend the Rock on a certain Friday night and 175 show up, God still worked — some people did show up, and maybe even a few more than usual. But our “faith goal” was not realized.

I honestly find myself terribly disappointed and even hurt (emotionally) in these situations on a regular basis. We are constantly asking God for very amazing things, and somehow it often (maybe even usually) seems like God does only a small part of the amazing thing we ask for. I find myself wondering if we did our part correctly or if we even asked for the right thing in the first place.

Sometimes in the past I have let my disappointment and doubt turn to cynicism and small faith and mistrust of the people who suggested the goal if it wasn’t one I was a part of creating. Lots of un-achieved faith-goals over the years put forth by various people at all levels left me feeling very tired by the whole process. In recent months I have tried to turn the corner on that and allow myself to have fresh faith again, even if it means facing this internal pain and disappointment time and time again.

Now, I know that we are not supposed to put our hope in things like ministry success, or in whether or not our requests to God have been answered in the way we expected. Our hope is to be in the glory that awaits us in heaven. Our hope is to be in the Lord! Yet for me it is still really hard to put my all into asking over and over again, only to have God rarely answer by meeting or exceeding the faith goal that was set out.

What am I missing? How does a person on one hand, consistently ask God to do great things in a ministry context (not limiting the size or scope of miracle or results He may want to accomplish through a given ministry or church body or team or Lifegroup)…while yet being absolutely content if God often answers that He would rather do only small things through you or your church or your group at the moment. And besides, how would you know if it was partly your fault (because you asked for the wrong thing or did the wrong thing or were too lazy or whatever) that God didn’t choose to come through on the request you made of Him?

Please let me know if you have any great insights on this.

32 (or more) Ways to Say the Same Thing

As a part of the “Believing God” study that many Rock/Stonebrook women are doing this summer, participants are asked to read Romans chapter 4 twenty times before the study concludes. While introducing the study on Wednesday night last week, Elaine happened to mention that when she did the study the first time she read Romans 4 in “just about every translation out there” in order to keep it fresh and not get too bored with it.

Always liking a good challenge, I thought to myself, I bet I could find at least 20 different translations to read it in, and hence read it in a different one every time! I actually found links online to 32 different translations (all but one is from either biblegateway.org or bible.crosswalk.com). So, I guess I will be reading Romans 4 at least 32 times…since I don’t want to leave any out!

If you would like to do the same, or at least get some more variety in your reading of the passage twenty times, here is a linked list. Please comment if you know of any other translations that can be read on the web, and I will update the list:

  1. NIV
  2. NAS
  3. The Message
  4. Amplified
  5. NLT
  6. King James
  7. ESV (English Standard Version)
  8. Contemporary English Version
  9. New King James
  10. 21st Century King James Version
  11. American Standard Version
  12. Young’s Literal Translation
  13. Darby Translation
  14. New Life Version
  15. Holman Christian Standard
  16. New International Readers Version
  17. Wycliffe New Testament
  18. Worldwide English
  19. Third Millenium Bible
  20. New Revised Standard
  21. Revised Standard
  22. Good News Bible
  23. Douay-Rheims Bible
  24. The Complete Jewish Bible
  25. New Century Version
  26. God’s Word Translation
  27. World English Bible
  28. The Bible in Basic English
  29. The Webster Bible
  30. Weymouth New Testament
  31. Today’s New International Version
  32. New English Translation

Happy Reading! :-)

A History of “Far from the Cross”

These thoughts began as a comment on Teege’s blog post critiquing the phrase “far from the cross.” I quickly realized, though, that I had so much to say I should just make it my own blog entry. You might want to read his post first if you haven’t done so yet. In this entry I am not really setting out to defend the phrase as much as give a history of where it came from — since a lot of people who are around now were not around when it first came into use.

The first time anyone heard of that phrase specifically (as far as I know) was when some of us were taking a trip to Iowa City well before the Mars Hill church plant. In fact, it was even a few months before we actually started the Friday Night Rock as we know it — late February or early March of 2000.

We were exploring the idea of “someday” planting a church in Iowa City, and a few of us were meeting with a pastor who, at the time, was working with 24/7 — the really big campus ministry at the Univesity of Iowa. I can’t remember if this was in response to a question or if it was just him sharing his philosophy of ministry, but he drew a cross on the board with a line coming out either side of it (horizontally). Then, a few inches from each side of the cross, he drew a vertical line, perpendicular to the horizontal line that was already there.

He then went on to explain that the focus or “target audience” of their ministry was those in that space a few inches either side of the cross — people who were saved but not necessarily very developed in their faith, and people not yet saved but “almost there” due to a church background or other circumstances in their lives. Perhaps this would include many people who were religious and “looking for a good church” but who didn’t yet have a personal relationship with Christ. Not that they minded if more mature Christians or people “far from the cross” got involved with their ministry–but the meetings, outreach strategies, etc. were designed to most appeal to and meet the needs of those in the “a few inches either side of the cross” category.

This paradigm really resonated with those of us who were there or who heard about it soon after. In our perception, many of the other ministries at Iowa State had a similar philosophy as this ministry in Iowa City. They were all trying to reach those “a few inches either side of the cross.” (Again — not that they didn’t reach some who were “far from the cross,” but that their programs were not designed with those people in mind.)

At the time we were in the process of trying to figure out who God was really calling us to be as we prepared to start a weekly large-group college ministry meeting for the first time in years. It seemed to make sense to us that God would want us to be filling a different niche or reaching a different “target audience” than the other Christian groups who already had large group meetings at ISU. Otherwise, why would God even be calling us to do it if the other groups had those bases covered? Aren’t there people who would find those very-Christiany “believer oriented” meetings uncomfortable or even distasteful, who might find a little bit different kind of meeting to be something they would be willing to attend?

It wasn’t like we just heard this paradigm of “far from the cross” and thought we would do it just because it sounded interesting. It was more that it really crystalized for a number of people something we were already thinking about (sentiments such as those shared by Tim in his comments on Teege’s blog entry). So, we set about to design our new large group meeting, which we eventually called The Rock, with that in mind — attracting those people who would not necessarily find other types of Christian meetings attractive. And, just as the other groups certainly were happy with reaching people farther from the cross if it were to happen, we certainly were fine with attracting some people who were “a few inches either side of the cross,” as long as people understood that the large group Rock was not necessarily designed to meet their needs.

“Far from the cross” is definitely one of those phrases or paradigms that was very meaningful to those of us who were around when it first came into use, but has (at least to some degree) suffered from “cliche” status in more recent years or has just in general been interpreted very differently by different people. It was never meant to imply that some kinds people getting involved or getting saved had more value (either in our eyes or God’s eyes) than other kinds of people — or even that we were supposed to avoid reaching out to people with “nice” or “churchy” backgrounds. As far as I know it was always more meant to describe our philosophy of the large-group Rock and the type of people we were “targeting” with that gathering in particular.

People don’t walk around with lables on them telling you whether they are only “a few inches from the cross” or “far from the cross.” Sometimes the people who seem like they are “far the cross” really aren’t and vice versa. “Far from the cross” isn’t necessarily people who look on the outside to be really different from us. It is not necessarily athiests, agnostics, and people of other religions. It is not necessarily people who get drunk every weekend, though someone far from the cross might be any of those things. If I were to myself describe what I thought “far from the cross” looked like, I might say that it was people who aren’t necessarily looking for God right at the moment and might not feel super comfortable in a really churchy setting…but yet are willing to take a chance on something that has a spiritual nature to it. (And, I am sure there are some people who will disagree with this definition — like I said, this phrase has suffered from a huge degree of differing opinions and downright confusion over the years.)

This paradigm definitely has its limits, and I often wish we had a better way of describing our “target audience” or philosophy in general. In the end, even if people are already saved when they meet us…God will still bring us the people He wants to have in our midst. After all, I was already saved but very immature in my faith when I came to college as a freshman, and even though I thought I had a plan about what campus ministry I would get involved with when I came to school…God had a different plan in mind and He wanted me with Stonebrook.

Maybe if we all put our minds to it we can come up with a clearer phrase that describes the “target audience” or philosophy of ministry that God has called us to. :-)

New Orleans — Part 2

[thumb:1717:l:l=d] Photos are now online!

Here’s a link:

Gulf Coast Relief Pictures: Taken by Chris Cavan, Laura Hudson, Ev Cherrington, and Darcy Smalley

New Orleans — Part 1

OK, so I’m finally getting around to blogging about this. I figure better late than never.

Part 1 is this. Seven of us from Stonebrook Community Church, in Ames, and seven from Mars Hill Church, in Iowa City, went to Slidell, LA from January 3rd through the 9th, 2006.

Everybody made it there and back safe and sound. Even more importantly, we did a lot of very good things that would never have gotten done, had we not gone! Praise the Lord for that!

Just to whet your appetite, here are a few photos from our trip.

http://iowa.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2015228 (Sorry, Facebook login required.)

Here’s a small virutal tour of our Lousiana trip. (On Windows Live Local)

Faithwalkers Messages Online!

While it doesn’t seem this has been “officially” linked to yet on the GCC or Faithwalkers websites, it does look like the Faithwalkers messages have been posted. The best way to see the whole list is to go here.

Whether you missed the conference all together or want to hear a message for a second time (or, if like me, you only heard 50% of all the messages you did attend)…there should definitely be some great listening there!

Wall Demolition Pictures

My pictures of Wednesday night’s wall demolition are now uploaded here in our gallery! There are also a few other pics of sights seen at the building that night. As you are looking at these pictures, keep in mind the first ones were taken a little after 4pm (right after the roof supports were put up, and a little bit before wall demo started), and the last ones were taken about 10:15pm, right after demolition was finished. That’s a lot of bricks knocked down in just a few hours!

I haven’t been back to take pictures since the rubble was cleared and the steel beam was raised, but I hope to make it over soon to do that. Happy Viewing!

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